Our Love Story - IV (Moving On)

our breakup sank into my mind the day after we made our decision. i didn't want to cry. for me, i had done everything to save the relationship. i tried to be patient, less demanding, more loving. i failed. i tried reaching out to him, thinking maybe, we can get back together. but he told me to move on. he said that someday, i would find someone who would love me more and would take good care of me. so i did. hurt, but i did.

i started convincing myself that we were only friends. i could not react badly if he hold hands with anyone. i had no right. so be it. i began searching for someone else. my heart was moving on. i started flirting with a co-worker. he was not affecting me that much anymore. i was happy - really happy -, and he saw it.

then he started flirting with me again. it's as if he didn't want me with someone else. he got jealous when i was texting with somebody. he was looking at me as if the feeling was still there. he held my hand as if he didn't want to let go of me.he wanted to get me back.

i never wanted to be left hanging. he was confused - he wanted me to stay, but he did not want to make any efforts, any changes. and i could not accept that. it was made clear to me that he was not ready. i had to help him and myself move on. so i decided to leave.