Our Love Story - V (Undecided)

i left davao for manila last day of april 2006. i left with a heavy heart, but with high hopes. with a heavy heart because i left behind my friends, my brethren, the fellowship and the church, knowing that it would take time before i would go home again. with high hopes because of a promise of better life and career, and a healed heart.

but he never left my shadow. he was still there - texting me, calling me. the more he wanted me back. i wanted to give it a try, but there was hesitation. i didn't know if a long distance relationship would work for us. most of the times, it does not work.

i started falling for him again. i even called him may 2006, while they were in a camp meeting to check how they were doing. i thought we had an understanding. i was about to say yes. but a week after that, i learned he just got a new girlfriend. i felt cheated on.

i tried so hard to convince myself that maybe, we're not meant to be - that maybe he just did not love me that much at all. yes, i gave him signs. and that might have confused him the more. eventually, they broke up. i didn't know how to react - i had mixed emotions. i was sad because i knew somehow, he had feelings for her, though i didn't know how strong. and yes, i was happy, because i saw a chance for us.