Our Love Story - XII (Back in Each Other)

almost a week after they broke up, we confirmed that we still have feelings for each other. and we were back in each other's arms virtually, since we were in a long distance relationship. this time, i could feel the difference. we made extra efforts to always communicate. and i realized it was kinda expensive - texting and calling. but it was worth it.

still, it was not a perfect relationship. and i understood from the start that it would be hard for both of us, harder for him since he's the guy. i knew there would always be temptations on his side. i knew i couldn't always trust that he would always do what's right. i knew he's weak and could easily give in. but i wasn't ready to know that it was happening.

it was his birthday. it was in that day when our relationship was tested again. i got news that something happened between him and the 'ex'. my heart was crushed. my trust, broken. i confronted him and he almost speechlessly admitted his guilt. i didn't know what to do. was it a sign for me to really, completely, finally give him up? or was it just a test i should endure?

my heart triumphed over my head. i forgave him and accepted him again. from that time onwards, he exerted extra effort to gain my trust again. and he didn't fail. although i trusted him again, somewhere in my mind and in my heart was telling me to always watch out and never give my full trust. so i trusted him and did not trust him at the same time. how did i do it? i didn't know. was it even possible? i think so.